Find my smile

I've been finding it difficult to find my smile today. I thought I was coming home to an empty house and to my surprise I didn't. I was relieved yet unbothered. I remembered sleeping alone. No safe arms to sleep in, nor a warm body to get lost in. I don't know why I can't find my smile in what we have and honestly I never really have. But maybe that's the lesson here: as much as I desire to be able to find my smile in who I'm with, some times it comes from within.